Return to work
Two months ago, I returned to work after taking Adoption Leave. I thought my main dilemma would be navigating working and childcare. As...
Being childless; recurrent miscarriage; infertility and finding a different route to motherhood can be such isolating situations.
"Behind my smile....
I carried my broken heart wherever I went. Every miscarriage seemed to just add to the weight of my previous loss and kept the wound open. I didn't know how to heal"
Finding others who understood has been a huge support in my healing journey and something I want to pay forwards
I want to change the conversations we have about pregnancy loss, infertility and childlessness. As well as discuss what happens next. For some this means surrogacy or adoption, for others, these options may not be right, or possible. There is grief either way, losing the option to carry your child; losing a genetic link, or running out of possible options.
So much around these subjects is still taboo, the subjects still avoided or skirted over. Workplaces are still unprepared to support circumstances which move away from the expected nuclear family.
I want to raise awareness of the disenfranchised griefs linked to not travelling the expected path. Finding yourself single, re-evaluating what you want from life, navigating childlessness, redefining motherhood and becoming an older mum.
Over the years, my childlessness and miscarriages meant I felt entirely alone, separated from the world by an invisible barrier of pain and shame. I blamed myself for my miscarriages and felt I'd failed at life. My childlessness weighed heavily on me, with each passing year I felt I was watching life passing me by.
I have now adopted two beautiful little girls with my partner and we are navigating our way through this process.
You can read more about my own story in the 'About me' tab.
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